The New York Times continues to OWN Eliot Spitzer and his high priced ho-bagging ways. First, they break the biggest story of the year when he turns up on a wire tap arranging pay for play. Now they grind their six-inch red stiletto into his eager groin via an exclusive interview with Ashley Alexandra Dupré, or as Spitzer knew her, Kristen. (She was born Ashley Youmans, but she's an artist now; her music is on her MySpace page, which the Times unearths.) She started working in the biz, she says, when the man she was living with walked out on her, leaving her scrambling for rent. "I just don't want to be thought of as a monster," she told the paper in a series of phone interviews Tuesday night. "This has been a very difficult time. It is complicated." Online, she describes herself as a runaway, victim of abuse, occasional drug user, and fan of Christina Aguilera, Patsy Cline, Lauryn Hill, Amy Winehouse, the Rolling Stones, and more.

Judging from her latest blog entry, this call girl has a heart of gold ...

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I am all about my music, and my music is all about me... It flows from what I've been through, what I've seen and how I feel. I live in New York and am on top of the world. Been here since 2004 and I love this city, I love my life here. But, my path has not been easy. When I was 17, I left home. It was my decision and I've never looked back. Left my hometown. Left a broken family. Left abuse. Left an older brother who had already split. Left and learned what it was like to have everything, and lose it, again and again. Learned what it was like to wake up one day and have the people you care about most gone. I have been alone. I have abused drugs. I have been broke and homeless. But, I survived, on my own.

Tell-all book deal, reality show, sighting with Olsens TK.

Below, Youmans' unedited blogging in all its glory ...

Thursday, August 30, 2007

positive energy will attract positive energy: Law of Attraction
Current mood: determined

Hello Everyone!! how are you?? This Blog i am going to just talk about my feelings on relationships...from a boyfriend/girlfriend, to closest friends, to family and business relationships...they are all the same to me...

The past few months have been a roller coaster with so called friends, lovers, and family...but its something you have to deal with and confront in order to move on...

I stepped away from each situation that happened and asked myself...

1) What is this person doing to make my life better? (financial, intel, drive, networking etc.)

2) How does this person make me feel? (happy, sad, motivated, depressed, constantly doubting, drama, etc.)

3) How is this person a positive influence in my life? (do they share the same interests, same dreams, does that person make me better when i am with them, or when they are in my life...i would be the same person if they werent in my life, but its just better with them in it...is my best interest always number one in their head AND heart, etc.)

from all this, i mean...

*Does that person make you feel good?

*Does that person drive you to be better?

*Is that person right there behind you when things arent that good, or even if they are??

*Will that person be an asset to your life...(will that person have value): doesn't have to be financial, i am talking respect, courage, and umm RESPECT.

If you are in a relationship, and it is "doing absolutly nothing" for you, makes you feel bad about yourself or situations, just causing unessesary drama, and ruining things that you may actually care about...why would you want that in your life?? you need to surround yourself with the people that make you feel good, and that will help you get to that next step in your life. that is what a relationship is all about...growing and moving forward.

Surround yourself around people that are making moves, and doing what "they want and love" with their lives, positive energy...thats what life is all about...living. Because if you dont, misery loves company, they will only try to bring you down with them...but the question is, are you strong enough, to not let that happen?

Its hard to see if you let it get to that point...

...and then from all those answers you have to decide if that person is worthy of being a part of "your" life....because it is your life, your show...you decide who you want the characters to be...not the other way around. Every person is different, every person has their voice...can you recognize your voice, listen to it, and stick up for it??

Bless,

much love...aad