It's been exactly one month since former 'Bachelorette' contestant Julien Hug shot and killed himself in a remote area of Palm Springs, and his live-in girlfriend Jennifer Bell told RadarOnline.com that there is still "tremendous temptation and interest to make sense of the senselessness."

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"Not much has changed in my life in the past month, other than utter sadness and emptiness at the loss of my best friend and greatest love."

In a tear-filled interview Julien Hug's live-in girlfriend told RadarOnline.com the Bachelorette star was misunderstood by most people and that the couple was planning to wed.

Jennifer Bell broke down sobbing throughout the interview as she told RadarOnline.com that Hug was a "free spirit...a pure man--nothing but pure goodness.”

Bell alluded to a secret pain that Hug was suffering from, a pain that ended his life. Hug’s father confirmed RadarOnline.com’s earlier report that the Bachelorette contestant committed suicide.

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Hug, 35, was found dead near a highway in Southern California on Wednesday. His death stunned the TV world and left everyone, including Bell, simply asking "Why?"

Bachelorette contestant Julien Hug took his own life with a “self inflicted gunshot” wound according to the Riverside County Sheriff’s department, as RadarOnline.com was the first to report.

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The 35-year-old former reality-TV star was found dead in a remote area near Palm Springs. His body was retrieved by the Sheriff’s department helicopter on Thursday and the autopsy results delivered Friday. 

Julien’s father Bertrand Hug delivered the sad news that his son had left a note for friends and family before he committed suicide.